Thursday, February 14, 2013

Positive Day/Good News day..


Not to brag or anything, but actually I can bring myself back in the right track. Yeah I know that I've been feeling down in the dumps through the last semester and that for sure made me realize that I can freaking actually do this. Yesterday, was one of the best day I had so far. I got the best tutor (supportive of me..^ ^ ) and I actually did study about this week's topics, seriously. (Metabolism, urghh..). So, maybe because of my confident level is starting to grow a bit by bit and the way I elaborate all those topics. Yeah, feeling pretty good about it. Plus, for the first time my mentors compliment me about my changes and again not to brag or anything but I think this could be the minor sign of me getting back my momentum which I had in the last couple of years (SPM time...). and of course before the compliment they mentioned about my lazy ass habit but that's okay. I take that as a catalyst to boost up my confident level. Thanks seniors, keep it coming ya!. (Hahahah!!). Not to forget, on this day also some of my seniors passed the clinical exams and got the title dr.Muda. Congrats to them. What can I say, this is my 'good news' day. The old Azuan who felt like he's in the bottom of the stinky dirt is now officially came out with a new pair of clean t-shirt and trouser. (what the heck?? haha..) I hope it will last longer because I really need this. I know I'm bound to do great things and I should be happy for what I am. Just need to stay focus and not let myself get down.

A new positive day is the mark of me getting back my momentum and yes I'm going to wade out of my stinky ugly mud puddle and rejoin the sun, rainbow and do things that associated with people of optimistic and motivational spirit (hahahaha!!).

Truly the most important thing personally as I'm a muslim, we should all repent our past sins and have a fresh new beginning today and do whatever we can to get a better tomorrow. Make a firm conviction to try to fulfill our obligations unto Allah SWT and do everything to please him and refrain from anything that may anger or displease him. -Note to self-

-peace out-
-Happy Birthday Ayah, Love u so much-

-6.48 AM, Friday, 15th February 2013-

Friday, February 8, 2013

Aftermath Volume II

Sorry, its been so long since I've posted something. Oh wait, why do I have to apologize? Is not like there are some people that actually read my blog anyway. Especially since I'm the namesake of this crapblog, but life has become far less stressful for me (Alhamdulillah) so i'll be posting more again I hope, and of course the 'don't give up' messages from some of my close peers after the last crappy results that I have to take. (Thanks guys) Unfortunately, life must go on. We cant look back at the past, there's a whole lot of reason behind it. Never mind, life sucks and we know that for sure. 

New semester, new group-mate, and hopefully new beginnings that can make up from the last time. InsyaAllah and of course I have to suffer from what I've done in the past. I have to cover my stupid face with a smile every time I came across with my peers. Hate it! Hate it! Hate it! But what to do. Hold it together Azuan, you can make it and I know I will be a bad ass doctor someday. You just wait and see. 

Now I know, there's only me and Allah that can get me through this. With the help of my parents, siblings and some friends (that actually care about me). I need you guys to help me achieve my dreams. I cant do it alone and I know now. You cant be a snob and believes that some people are inherently beneath you for any of one of variety of reasons like intellect, wealth, education, class, beauty (beauty? more like handsome hehe..), nationality or many more. It will not bring you to the level that you want it to. Hell no. You will ended up dead because someone will shoot you in the face. (Okay Azuan, you just going too far.). What I'm saying is, I need to be humble in order to seek everyone's help. 

Alhamdulillah, I have all the help that I need.

So, this is my first post in year 2013. Hopefully I'll be posting more again. 

Bitaufiq wannajah fil imtihan
InsyaAllah, robbuna yusahhil..