Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Goodbye Shah Alam..

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.



Goodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply means I'll miss you.
Until we meet again.

Goodbye my hometown.

Sunday, July 24, 2011


Be a Cultured Man and Stay Healthy and lastly Happy.

Forget the past and move on.

Once you forget the past, you will feel relieved. You will feel like you are breathing again. 

Friday, July 22, 2011


Girl, you deserved more than empty words,

and I believed everything you've said to me.

And I gave you the best I have.

So take a bow.

Cause this scene is coming to an end.

You give me love.

All I give you was pretend.

That's not fair to you.

So now, take a bow......

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Sunday, July 17, 2011

I believe in myself.

This is the story of dumb kid that want to pursue his dream to become a doctor. When I was a kid, my mom used to tell me that I'm the one that will carry her dream of becoming a doctor. Of course at that moment, I didn't act like it was a burden because I'm still a kid. Come on, for a kid we don't know anything about hardship. Yeah, it always about having fun and normal stuff that kids do at that time. It is different when you want to compare my past childhood and kids these days. Yeah, technology, who can blame it. So. the journey of me becoming what my mom's want me to be is not very easy. Its started when I was in primary school, Sekolah Kebangsaan TTDI Jaya. At that time, my academics was average. I didn't think much about my studies. Only focuses at sports. Yeah, sports is everything to me at that time. It always about sports. Football, olahraga, and badminton. The spirit of athletics in me is very high and some other time I think I want to be a sportsman.

My life is full of trials and tribulations. I can consider me myself had through many phases. Okay this is phase one when UPSR is about to enter my life. I didn't get straight A's. Only 4A's. Of course my family did not saw that coming at that time because of my previous grades entire years of primary school was not that great. So, I think it is just a 'good luck' for me. That's fine. Alhamdulillah.

After that I progress to secondary level of education which is secondary school Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan TTDI Jaya. This can consider as phase two. Secondary school for me is very exciting and awesome. It is a start for me to become a wonderful teenager. Wonderful? Hahaha.. Yeah, Form 1 until Form 3, I have a blast. Who wouldn't be happy or proud when you get the chance to be the president of prefects when you just only 14 years old. Such a great experience. Haha. Unfortunately, with all the responsibilities and works and 'other things' if you understand what I mean, my grades was not that good. I failed in one subject, Maths! Wutta...and also I broke up with my 'first' girlfriend at that time. I mean dumped. It is started when I was in standard 5.  Three years. Wow! Haha. She dumped me. Sucks to be me. Pathetic kind of guy. After all the bad shit happen, my grades was affecting by it. Failed. Failed. Failed. Everything was not right for me. My goal and my dreams vanished! I often skipped classes and my class teacher was very worried. My parents didn't know anything about my skipping class habit. No one in my family know. After that, I swore to myself that never ever ever ever again 'Bercouple'. Waste my time la weyh!

So, because of that when I was in Form 3, I dropped two class and this can consider as phase 3. From the top class dropped to the third class. It sucks at that time because of the embarrassment you know and also I've been dumped again. Second girlfriend. What the tuuuuuuuuuuuutttt.......... Arrggghh....Sucks you girl. Because of that, my grades again 'JATUH'. Yeah, I know that my friends seem to underestimate my ability to success after all the bad shit happen again. Huh... PMR is compulsory for us Form 3 students so I want to get straight A's so badly because I want to prove to them that I can do it but I didn't. Yeah, all the struggle and hardwork is not enough. Its okay, I didn't sucks just average. Thank god because the great thing was I managed to get throught it.

Phase 4 begin when I was in Form 4. I did get into boarding school. Yay for me!!! haha....It is called Maktab Rendah Sains MARA of Gemencheh, Negeri Sembilan. The chances to enter that school is tough. I have to compete with many excellent students. Yeah, many! So, I think its my luck again. Rezeki masing2 kan....So. I was very happy because this is one opportunity for me to prove that I also can be an excellent students. For the first 3 months, I had through many complications you know. I have to adjust all my usual daily activities because in boarding school is always about follow the rules. Rules, rules and rules. But anyway its not that hard. Just follow the rules and be a good kid. That's all.

The first year was a blast for me. All the activities were mostly about leadership and entrepreneurship. Plus, I did get to be the president of the Ahli Lembaga Koperasi. So 'gila pangkat lah.'...Haha..Along the journey of me doing koperasi stuff, I had many problems. With the koperasi itself and also my academics. Again I've said it before, I cant manage my time wisely. Shoot...Plus, in MRSM I also active in many curricular activities such as rugby, badminton, handball and also public speaking in Malay la. So because of that, my CGPA dropped. It caused me massive trouble because SPM is just around the corner and I also had a fight with my koperasi teacher. Sorry teacher...hehe..The downfall of my life in MRSM continue until SPM. Once again I didn't get straight A's. Sucks though. I blew it.   My family was very disappointed in me. Yeah the youngest child or should I say the 'golden child' was not able to success in SPM. Worst moment of my entire life. After that, I proceed to the next level of my education (education la konon) or should I say ' National Service'. Plkn lah.....

Phase 5 is about to enter my life. I called this phase ' fasa kegemilangan ku'. Why? Let me see. I was chosen to be the Pelatih Latihan Khidmat Negara by randomly. 'wow bestnyew..'.. Seriously government? Then, while I was in the training, I've met with many beautiful and handsome friends. Rindu2. I was nominated to be one of the best wira and alhamdulillah I am the 'best wira!' Hahahaha...Pelatih terbaik tuh...ehem2....Plus, the jurulatih was very charming and helpful especially En. Khalid.

Next to phase 5 is Phase 6 of course. Phase 6 is one of the best phase in my life. I went to Kolej Mara Kuala Nerang, Kedah to proceed with my foundation studies. Ye la...Nak jadi doktor kan..kene wat foundation dulu.. Dengan semangat yg berkobar-kobar aku tidak ingin mengulangi kesilapan yg lalu. So, I was very determined and I wanted to study hard and success so badly.

However, the spirit wasn't last long. For the first semester, my spirit was very high until my first sem result came out. Damn...not even close to 4 flat. Damn u Azuan.!! How could u!! Let ur parents disappointed again!! Kau g keje la sng! (Kata Azuan dlm hati) freakin exhausted la. How many failure I have to face. People usually will be more determined after failure, but it is different for me at that time. I was became more more more more lazy and 'fragile'. Fragile huh? Yeah, I always cry alone in the dark. (Ayat tak bleh blah) but seriously mmg btul lah..saje taknak tunjuk...kenelah macho dpn owg....I know that semester 2 will be same as semester 1 no doubt. And mmg btul, same je! Cita2 da la nk jadi doktor. Lawak2...baek takyah..So, I when I checked my semester 2 result, speechless and speechless and speechless and speechless...brape byk speechless ha! ...hahah...sungguh tak disangka...bole lah..sket2 je....

[ practical time ]

Then continue with my Phase 7 of my journey of becoming a doctor (not yet). Hahaha....Frankly, phase 7 for me is a phase of doubt. Doing something that not clear to me. It wasn't clear to me until I managed to handle my doubts and discussed with my parents what is it that I want actually. So, after long and long and long and long discussion I had with my family and also friends, I decided that my passion is still medicine! n there it was. Medicine is the only thing in my head and my mind right now. There u go. Alhamdulillah, from UniKL, I got the chance to further my degree in medicine in Universitas Andalas. Got through the interview and also the exam (susah gila nk mampoih!!) bg aku depa yg pandai2 bole kot.. What a journey, I have to face many fail. Ye kate baek gagal dulu sblum berjaya and aku akan sentiase igt bende tuh.. Tk semestinya  yg tak berjaya, takkan berjaya selama-lamanya kan. I want to prove to them that I am an average student and I can succeed in being a doctor same as the excellent students! 

and there you go. All the phases of my life. This is not the end, this is just the beginning. I am in the right track to achieve my goal which is to be a successful doctor. InsyaAllah. May Allah bless my upcoming journey of becoming a doctor. Amin

p/s: phase 8 will continue......

Universitas Andalas.