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Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger107125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934056716569738788.post-48651721725520635022017-09-23T04:29:00.000-07:002017-09-23T04:59:56.407-07:00I'm a sensitive guy. I hate being left out. Sometimes I feel like my personality doesn't stands out like it used to. I used to be popular and well liked but now I feel like I've been left out. It all started when I entered MRSM and my personality changes the way I wanted to. I wanted to be someone that I'm not and it got me. My journey through out MRSM life is not what I expected. I turned out to be the guy that people will remember and it is because of the achievements and other things that I do for the school but deep down inside I feel empty. I feel like I wasted my freaking MRSM life just to impress people and not single thing I do for myself. Yeah, I got a lot of experience from that but I feel like it doesn't help me at all. Now I feel like everything against me. My university life is fucking waste of time. I still in the middle of my thesis and I got stuck. I didn't know what to do. FUCK MY LIFE. That's a whole another story but we will get into that.<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">STOP FUCKING MESSAGING EACH OTHER. PLEASE BE LIKE WHAT WE USED TO. FRIENDS. NOT MORE THAN THAT. I CANT ACCEPT THAT MY BESTFRIEND AND YOU ARE TOGETHER. FUCK!!!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"> Yes I'm fucking jealous. Its like my daily routine to check your status and online notification from both of you. FUCK YALL!! I hope you guys not ended up together. Its annoying to think that you guys are perfect for each other. Urghhhhhh!!!!</span></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: x-large;">STOP SHOWING THAT YOU ARE HAPPY WITH YOUR LIFE AND GRATEFUL BECAUSE YOU ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING. STOP FUCKING SHOW OFF. I DONT WANT YOUR POSITIVITY SMEARED ALL OVER MY FACE. FUCK YOU!!! YOU MAKE ME FUCKING JEALOUS. FUCK YOU!!</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">THIS IS THE ONLY PLACE THAT I CAN BE MYSELF AND SHOW ALL MY TRUE COLOURS. I'M NOT PERFECT. ITS JUST THAT I NEED THIS IN ORDER TO KEEP ME SANE. SO IF YOU DONT KNOW ME, GOOD. IF YOU DO, IM SORRY, GET THE FUCK AWAY OR IF YOU STILL WANT TO READ MY BLOG, SHUT UP AND DONT FUCKING JUDGING ME. </span></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934056716569738788.post-31748891026899880142016-11-20T05:21:00.000-08:002016-11-20T05:21:56.567-08:00What about that pause Azuan???Yeah, what about that pause Azuan?!!!!<br />
You think you can control your emotion by taking pause and breathe. You failed. I fucking failed. Why god? Why???? I fucking jealous of you two. Why I feel like I want them to just be friends like normal and dont have any feelings for each other. If its someone else I can accept but between you guys??? No I cant. Im a terrible best friend ever.<br />
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Why do I feel like this? Ya Allah, let me concentrate on whats important. Let me be at peace....Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934056716569738788.post-40898427182078188602016-11-12T11:33:00.000-08:002016-11-12T11:33:06.375-08:00Go away... Haha. I think my blog is turning into my personal diary. Who the fuck cares???!! I wonder why I feel like a bitch sometimes but I want to slap every couple in their faces. I feel like want to explode for no reason and kick in their stomach so that they can stop being cute and lovey dovey. Yikes. What the hell is wrong with me???????!!! <div>
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Because of you guys, who perfect for each other and cute and lovely and !!$!$#$%#^%#^$%..... made me think of one person who currently.. I don't know like me or not. Stop it. I cant take it anymore. I'm jealous of you guys.</div>
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I'm madly in love with someone that I dont think I have a shot with. For the past 3 years, I've being so cool about it and thinking that its not the right time. You stupid son of a bitch Azuan. You decided to confess to her like a moron and end up you feel like shit. Every single day you wait for her to text you. I dont want this. Why god? Why?????</div>
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I want someone who I can share my thoughts and anything. Someone who has feelings for each other. Someone I can have deep conversations with who understand everything and opposite sex. I want that. With you. I dont want to waste my time searching for someone else. Arghhhh....</div>
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And plus my best friend who are now happy with his and you feel jealous because deep down inside you want the same kind of thing. Stupid. You cant force love and you already know that. But still Azuan, why??? Why you do that??? </div>
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I wish I can take back what I did. I shouldn't confess to her. Now you feel miserable because of that. And everytime you watch them together and see them texting you feel like shit. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934056716569738788.post-80689122793479874922016-11-11T19:57:00.000-08:002016-11-11T19:57:10.384-08:00When things don't go your way...<i>"Its so hard to deal with this kind of emotion when you think someone actually care about you. Fuck you dude. Thought of being best friend with you but certainly you dont know anything about being a best friend. I opened up to you about my life and shared everything but what I got from you. NOTHING. ZERO. Fuck it. Yes Im over exaggerate about this but Im taking this too seriously. Maybe Im so desperate about having a best friend. Because I never had one. So you came along with all the qualities that everyone like. Everyone is so dependent on you but you can manage yourself well. Okay dude, stop being an ego bastard. I hate your guts dude. Please try to understand me. I dont want to go to you like I used to and spread shit all over your face. Im done with you. Im always be the one who knock on your door. Maybe Im an ego bastard as well but fuck it. Im so done with you. You are known to be the most helpful person in the entire world. Always taking care of everybody but when I have a problem YOU NEVER ASK! FUCK YOU. Yes Im jealous because you are the one that I can trust in this shit hole and never ask me whether you did wrong because you know you never do anything wrong. Fuck you. Damn you. Damn you. and plus now you hold a responsibility to be our leader. I hate you even more. We planned before to stay away from anything that have to do with the organization after one year but everyone seems to care so much about this damn persatuan and nominate you. Im fucking mad bro and you never ask me for help because you never respect me."</i><br />
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This is from last year. I kept this in my draft for so long because I scared I will lose a friend. No.</div>
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What I wanted and prayed for is being answered. Alhamdulillah.<br />
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I can say that I have a friend that actually care about me. The one that never give up on me even though I always get mad because of silly things. Allah has answered my prayers. He did opened up to me after so long I wanted him to do that. He cried because he almost gave up on being friends with me but he didn't. He care for me to much like a brother and I do to. </div>
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Thanks bro. Brothers till jannah. You are my best friend. No one can ever replace you. You are my person. The person I go to when I'm in trouble, sad, happy. I will be very pissed if you started dating and ignore me. But you didn't. We start together and finish together. That is our mission. I love you from the bottom of my heart. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934056716569738788.post-45925499720687233982016-11-11T17:38:00.001-08:002016-11-11T17:38:09.203-08:00Anxiety attackIts been 2 years now since I posted my last blog. Many things happened in my life that I think it is worth to blog about but I've known as the lazy type of person so yeah. What made me want to write again is recently I had a reality slap. Thinking about my future. What future? You don't even focus on whats matter the most to you right now which is your studies but still think about other stuff. Well done bro! Yeah, I don't give a damn.<br />
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All these years, you think that you made a right choice of not having a relationship with someone. You know that based on your experience, it brings more harm than good. I do feel like that. And plus you got your best friend beside you support and fully committed with you that having a relationship with someone is total waste of time. You are not ready. Yup, reality slapped me once again, my own best friend betray me and had found his so called future love life. What the F is going on here. What hurts the most is, I was being told by someone. I denied it first. I thought it was just a stupid rumor but no. There are true, The girl also is one of my closest friend. My life just went downhill from there. </div>
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What am I supposed to do now? I'm happy but inside I feel like I want to explode. I don't know why I'm feeling like this. Is it because I scared that I might losing my best friend? Well the answer is YES. Its because I scared that I might ended up alone. YES. </div>
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<span style="text-align: left;">Im going mental over the simplest thing. I dont know why recently I got very dependent and overly attached to someone. I get so angry and upset being left alone and Im going crazy over the fact that maybe they forgotten me. I seem to get lost a lot. Recently I have been getting worse, I seem to be really happy then one silly thing got me so annoyed and angry. Especially to a particular person. Ya Allah, I think I have a some kind of bipolar disorder. Who knows, maybe its just an early detection. I must go check to psychiatry or something. Im really ashamed of my actions towards that person. Its like Mr. Creepy or Weirdo. Damn, I lost it. Totally lost it. Im so fucking sorry dude. Im needy. But the truth is deep down inside I really want a best friend but the way I acted. Sorry bro Im not going to be friend with you. Come on Azuan....</span></div>
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You care too deeply and too selflessly and it makes everyone else look bad. That's your so called weakness. But to be honest with, its actually an unbelievable, rare strength. Yea rite! When you truly care for someone, you make them an important part of you. You stay with them through their sorrows and heal their pains. No one can even say they protect and care as much as you for someone whom you love. Your loved ones never forget you and they always keep you in their hearts. Never forget that Azuan.<br />
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My life basically is going down the hill right now. My pathway to future is full of bigger rocks and walls that I cant get through. I'm not ashamed to tell that I'm the cause of it. Yeah, pity me. Booohhoooo!! Who fucking cares. Why me? Can u just let me go through this shit hole without any of this fucking remedials and all. I fucking hate this. Why me? Why always me? It is because of my past that I lack of something that I didn't deserves all the success that I had? Hah???!! Is it? If that's the case, I FUCKING DESERVES IT but come on!! Its fucking 3 years in a row now. Could you at least give me one fucking chance to pass. One chance is all I need. I need this. I know you know how badly I want this. Deep down inside I know I can be a good doctor. Well a fucking great one if I tell you. All my surroundings are not helping. My so called close friend here, didn't even to try to comfort me with all the positive words. Fuck me right. Who cares about me? Sucks for you though. Life is not fair I tell you. My so called peers here didn't put enough effort and yet can pass this fucking test. Me? Haha. Sucks for you though, you are always a failure. No doubt about it. You and your miserable life can suck it. I'm an excellent student you know but this condition that I chose for myself is not helping me. My surroundings is not helping. I have to take care of myself and I suck at it. My parents count on me but here I am not fulfilling their expectation. Fuck right? What kind of son are you? They sacrifice a lot and you still did the same thing over and over again. Life is not fair. Get used to it. Hahahahahaha. Sucks for you Azuan. You will never get used to it.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934056716569738788.post-299167838493160642013-12-02T04:15:00.003-08:002013-12-02T04:15:17.221-08:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934056716569738788.post-61642700091561257312013-12-01T01:52:00.000-08:002013-12-01T01:52:16.185-08:00WATAFAK.Again, I've been ignoring my blog. So what, 'bukan ada org nak baca pun'. Yeah, this post I want to dedicated to all the fucking people and fakers and also to a few people that really pisses me off. Before I continue writing this shit post, I want all of you know that the reason I doing this is to release my fucking tension and not to gain attention purposes. Everywhere I go, there will be some people that always annoys me. Usually the ones that I would say close to me in terms of living together and socializing. I'm not referring to friendship wise though. Many people dont know about me that I can tell people that are sincerely want to be close to me as a friend and just to know me because of my benefits that I have. Fuck that people. These people are not the one that you can trust and be friends with. Because once you dont already hold the benefits that you've had, they will act like they dont even want you to be in their surroundings. Of course they wont tell you in front of your face, their actions speaks for themselves. I hate that. Its very sad because I personally want them to appreciate me for who I am. I know I sounded like very pathetic and fucking loser for saying that. Thing that really pisses me off, the way they ignored me like I never exist in that place. Everytime they got some news to tell or ideas or asking out, they always forget about me living in the same room. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I shared room with a guy. Lets call him 'The Pious One' for short TPO. They always go to TPO whenever they had something to talk or discuss and I just stood there minding my own business and pretend that I busy with stuff yet I hear them most of the time like planning to go a trip and hanging out. I'm really really hate that. Its like I'm excluded or something. TPO is for me that the only friend in this shit hole that I will remember for the rest of my life and also he is the most sincere of them all. He's the only person in this shit hole that notices me. Sometimes deep down inside I knew that someday he will be my best friend but I doubt it. Who wants to be best friend with me. That's the problem that I have, once I get too emotionally attached to someone, I will eventually get heartbroken and dissapointed. Sigh. The problem that I have with TPO that I envied him because of who he really is and sometimes also irritates me because certain things that he forgot to mention. Come on! We share the freaking same room for god sake. Fuck.<br />
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I usually dont act like this. Burst it out to the whole world to know. I'm a good person and great with people. I dont know, maybe because of me. They way I present myself to others. I'm not rude and I'm kind. I just want others to notice that. I treat you guys nicely, in return I want you guys to treat me like that as well. It is just the continuous crap that pisses me off and I cant take it.<br />
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If someone read this, or even worse someone from the same place, I'm sorry.<br />
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Not to brag or anything, but actually I can bring myself back in the right track. Yeah I know that I've been feeling down in the dumps through the last semester and that for sure made me realize that I can freaking actually do this. Yesterday, was one of the best day I had so far. I got the best tutor (supportive of me..^ ^ ) and I actually did study about this week's topics, seriously. (Metabolism, urghh..). So, maybe because of my confident level is starting to grow a bit by bit and the way I elaborate all those topics. Yeah, feeling pretty good about it. Plus, for the first time my mentors compliment me about my changes and again not to brag or anything but I think this could be the minor sign of me getting back my momentum which I had in the last couple of years (SPM time...). and of course before the compliment they mentioned about my lazy ass habit but that's okay. I take that as a catalyst to boost up my confident level. Thanks seniors, keep it coming ya!. (Hahahah!!). Not to forget, on this day also some of my seniors passed the clinical exams and got the title dr.Muda. Congrats to them. What can I say, this is my 'good news' day. The old Azuan who felt like he's in the bottom of the stinky dirt is now officially came out with a new pair of clean t-shirt and trouser. (what the heck?? haha..) I hope it will last longer because I really need this. I know I'm bound to do great things and I should be happy for what I am. Just need to stay focus and not let myself get down.<br />
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