G.T.F.O.: March 2012

Monday, March 26, 2012

My heart ache...

Never ever have I ever felt so low.

When you gonna take me out of this black hole.

Never ever have I felt so sad.

The way I'm feeling,

yeah you got me feeling really bad.

Never ever have I had to find.

I've had to dig away to find my own piece of mind.

I've never ever had my conscience to fight.

The way I'm feeling,

yeah it just don't feel right.

I'll keep searching deep within my soul.

For all the answers. Don't want to hurt or confused no more.

I need peace. So I turn to you Ya Rabbi..

Gotta feel at ease. Need to be free from pain.

Go insane. Damn, my heart aches.

Sometimes vocabulary runs through my head. The alphabet runs from A to Z.

All the conversations, useless.

Brings back hesitation in my mind.

You guys got my conscience asking questions that I cant find.

It seems like I'm not grateful...No.

I'm not crazy. I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong.

It is just me.

Like my old man said,

Just wait, cause this feeling won't last that long.

and I'll wait.......

Friday, March 23, 2012

Happy birthday. Selamat Hari Jadi. Selamat Hari Lahir. Haha. Boring. Now I'm Indonesia so its Selamat Ul ang Tahun. Like my anniversary or what-so-ever. Today is my birthday. 20 years now and I still alive. Alhamdulillah. I have grown to be a man that I do not expected to be. A medical student. However, the most important thing I want to dedicate this day to my mom especially. In 1992, 24th March and approximately in the morning, you have giving birth to a special boy. All the pain and sacrifices at the moment you giving birth to me is out of this world. You were fighting against death so that I live. Words cant describe it. I deserve nothing. Who was the one struggling most on my birthday. Not me of course. Its you Mak and full support from Ayah. Mak and Ayah are deserve the wishes and presents. I know how often I took you guys for granted when I was growing up. I always assumed you'd be there when I needed you and you always were. But I never really thought about what that meant till now and began to realize how often your time and energy were devoted to me. So now, for all the times I didn't say it before, Thank you Mak and Ayah. I love you guys so much! Syukur Alhamdulillah....